Where I've been...

Oh my, today is not the day for me to write, but it's been too long. I have been doing horribly lately on eating right. Right now I know that this is one of the very few things that I can actually control, but yet I feel like I don't want control, I just want whatever feels good in the moment. Work is busy, home is incredibly stressful, memories are haunting me.... I am constantly stressing about everything, I just don't have any idea right now how to get my arms around my life. My parents and siblings are stressing me out ... I wonder if all these things are really stressing me or if I'm making them more intense and stressful just because of my other stuff going on.

I know what I have to do ...

I know that if I exercise, I will feel better and less stressed

I know if I track what I eat and follow WW I will feel better about myself and that will be what I have control over... yet I haven't been...

I really need to get back on track next week, I need to find good breakfasts and lunches because my wonderful loving husband has meal planned dinners, so they are done and they are healthy. It's snacks and other meals that I need control over.

I need to find some type of spiritual guidance... I just don't know where to turn...

I will get through this week and I will try to get myself straight for next week..

Maybe if I pack some boxes and get rid of stuff this weekend, I will feel better.